these are a few poems i have written since being away and my time limit is almost up so i can't write them all



Untitled #1

Had tunes in my head,
Now their gone,
Now their dead,
No leading trace,
Just vacant space,
All these feelings left unsaid,
Without Shape, without form,
All dead,
Yet still unborn,
All mixed inside,
Split and torn,
I am the nice guy to cry on,
The small guy to walk on,
I hear your plight,
Avoid the fight,
Born to be,
Only me,
But who needs the shoulder,
The calm, unmovable boulder,
If I were to die,
Would you cry?
I'll give you some advice,
If it makes you happy,
I'll pay the price,
I aim to please,
But what does that leave?
An empty shell,
To make Heaven of others Hell?
Why can't I be like you,
Everything pink and baby blue?
Kill me sweetly,
Make me feel it,
I'll suffer meakly,
If you enjoy it,
Please let me cry,
If it's pent up any longer,
I'll die!
I need someone to hold,
Not just to hug,
If I may be so bold,
I'd like someone to hold,
At this point it doesn't matter who,
But I'd preffer it,
If it were you,
You cast me aside like I'm some game,
Why do I always gratefully take the blame?
I'll stain your clothes with tears of blood,
My mind still wallows in the mud,
Help me feel again,
Get myself out of this pen,
I'll be free,
I'll see,
If you want I'll leave,
That's the key,
If it makes you happy I'll take my leave,
From this black wicked world,
Off to gates so elegantly pearled,
If you please,
You can make my leave.



Untitled #2

So many things in my head,
Nothing but you when I go to bed,
Why must it be so?
Why must you and I be so...
why couldn't we be fairytale ending,
Not changing the rules, just bending,
Memories of you,
Cloud my sight,
Shadows in the night,
Haze in the light,
God gave perfection a form,
Her heart is pure and warm,
Her eyes are innocent and perfect blue,
Of course this is for you,
But we could never be,
This I wish I couldn't see,
But it's so blindingly apperant to me,
Think what you may,
Your exactly what I say,
Please, a single chance?
Please, a single dance?
Please, a single perfect smile?
So that I will know what I dream?
I'm always against time,
Couldn't we dance just a little longer?
Couldn't this have just on more line?
I'm not just what I seem,
Hearts broken so badly,
There is no more room for another seam,
Yes, This rhyme,
Was deffinately made for you.


and this is actually a song i am makin' for the band that I am starting up...



Verse 1:
Your think your so cool standing there,
Arms crossed, spiked hair,
To my dismay,
You glance my way,
Your pose is clay,
So why should I pay?
Chorus:
Hey! Freak! Why do ya stare?
It's my body! Why do ya care?
You say that I'm, so obscene,
While your the homophobic,
Drag-queen!
Verse 2:
How could your face be so plastic?
And your clothes, so elastic?
How can you stand,
To be so bland?
Attitude changes with the times,
Invisible wind, of the mimes,
Chorus:
Hey! Freak! Why do ya stare?
It's my body! Why do ya care?
You say that I'm, so obscene,
While your the homophobic,
Drag-queen!




obviously no one has to comment on this 'cause i am not going to be on anymore (ask Andi for details) and i won't be able to see it...